Monday, February 23, 2009

A fresh start.

As I sit here and type this, Noah is drawing pictures, and everyone else is off doing their jobs. Abs is at preschool, Big kids are at their respective learning establishments and Jon is putting in his time like a good husband and daddy. I think all the other "babies" are taking their morning nap. And the "Momma" is outside enjoying the day. It is a dark and cloudy day but the warmth of spring is in the air. There is a light mist but it is nothing like the days in the middle of November when it is dark and gloomy and misty and the chill of winter is in the air. It feels as if the earth is starting to wake up.
I am completely amazed that I have made it through another week .My life is very full right now and is seems there is not a moment of peace. I try to find a few moments hiding here and there but they are few and far between. I found one of those moments today as I sat out in the warm mist of spring and watched Lyla try and figure out how to get the squirrel out of the tree. She may still be trying to figure it out but she seemed to be pretty content to spend the day keeping a good eye on the little fellow. Hope he doesn't need to come out of the tree anytime soon. If you know me you know what a big fan of peace and quiet I am.... I know you are asking why did you marry Jon and why in the world do you have 4 kids, well I am a big fan of all those things as well.. :) . I am seriously considering a beach vacation. I think more than ever in my life I am feeling the pull of the warm sandy beach. Just a few moments to soak in the sun and warmth and not have be awaken every morning by the alarm clock that there is no snooze for!
The past week about kicked my hiney. I have had a sick hubby, two sick kiddos, lost a puppy, had a runaway momma dog for a day (guess she is needing her beach vacation as well) and have been constantly in charge of the house, pets, and kids. I am the first one out of bed and the last one to bed, there has to be a law somewhere that states if Momma doesn't get her sleep quota the entire family shall slowly and systematically fall to ruins around her. I am serious I think it is the "Momma can never get sick law!" I am sure that is in a Physics book somewhere!
In spite of the week last week, I think my body knew today was a fresh start. I rolled out of bed this morning to the sound of Noah emerging from his room and howling puppies downstairs. But this morning it didn't seem impossible it felt like there may be a few moments even in all the insanity that I could find my "quiet" moment. I did it came while I was scrubbing the puppy room floor with my bucket of Lysol and had 7 little heads poking over at me wondering when I would be done...(probably so they could come over and piddle there again, but hey it was my moment I could take it whatever way I wanted!). It was a moment. One of those times when your heart quiets and you can feel the love that surrounds you and realize no matter what your situation you are certainly never alone in it! Even if those are only brief moments in my life right now they are what keeps me going. It is such a huge journey sometimes it sure helps to know there is always a day where you can wake up and just start over! Well I could never cover the complete insanity of my life in mere words, so I won't even try. As for know I am thinking the madness it about to begin so I should close for the day and wish everyone a Happy Monday. And may you always be given the chance to a new beginning! Here is to a fresh start!


Penny said...

To my beautiful daughter,
I am happy that you had a moment. Cherish them, I hope someday you will look back and wonder in awe about it all but know God must be convinced you are the one to do this at this moment. I know you do it out of love. I just wish you didn't have so much on your plate at once. I am so sorry you lost a puppy that makes me truly sad. Hugs to you. I hope to see you soon. Love, from your Mom